positivity

sometimes i cant keep up with my own mind. its mood swings really are giving me whiplash.

how i feel about life, people and myself is changing at an almost daily rate. yesterday i was being followed by a dark cloud that covered everything in a dperessing mist, but today, after reading Rachaels latest blog posts and sitting in the sunshine i've developed an entirely new outlook. 

i make these little promises to myself all the time...things like "this term im going to put everything i have into my work" or " today im not going to let anything annoy me" but i know, deep down that i wont be able to keep these. it only takes one thing to happen...one person to say the wrong thing, one bad or boring lecture and my resolve just crumbles.

i know i shouldnt let these things get me down, but they do. theres been a lot of things going wrong for me recently, and its getting harder to shrug them off, but i know i can always rely on my friends to keep be going.
jasmine's sheer stubborness and love keeps me supported, in check and on the rails, rachaels pure insanity is always a good remedy for the monday morning blues and vicky's unwavering loyalty and concern mean i always know theres someone outside of my uni bubble that cares and worries about me, so i never have to feel isolated.

i dont know how i would have survived as long as i have without my wonderful wives. i owe you, each and every one of you, a large amount of gratitude and love. 

                so, today IS going to be a positive day, because i know that no matter how bad things are, i have you guys to pick me up again.

                         i love you